Im so damn tired. But i got th urge to blog, if not i will feel uneasy.
Work was getting more & more tiring. Those ass people likes to buy stuffs only at last min. & 100% th crowd during th weekends is undescribable. ):

Tmr's th last dayof 2009. ^^
Im gonna leave my unhappy stuffs behind. (:
& remember every piece of happy moments (:
& here we come welcoming a new year. 2010. LOL. I sounds machiam like a reporter ._.
Which reminds me of th pushcart competition. Th jianshu was making a fool of himself, acting like a reporter, interviewing us ._.
Damn irratating. :X
He won't be see-ing this since he's at th sec1 orientation camp. Hahh! XD

Ahh crap, at first wanted to helpp xiushan celebrate her birthday on th first day of sch. But my auntie wanna bring me go Jp to get a new specs ._.
Which means i have to postpone th celebration. Veryyyy sorry to xiushan ):
Uh yeah, i rather my auntie buy for me contact lense. But she's getting an expensive specs this time. Transition lense for th specs. Which means when im under a sunny sun, th lense will change colour. Kind of int. :D
but i still want contact lenses T.T
& a new pencilcase
& a new wallet
& manymany! ):<

Good thing sch's reopening. Pocket money coming! XD
Save money ^^

Oh anw, i won't be updating my blog for th rest of th days till th first day of sch. Cause i'll be dead drop tired & busy :D
Anything text me will do. (:

& also a advancement new year wish.
Happy new year peepos! :D
Enjoy th new year. (:

Byeeeeeee ! (:
Kiss goodbye to 2009. (:

Nothing changes, it was still th same as before.

♥ 11:21 PM

Tears .



Peekaboo! XD
see, im so hardworking recently. Im updating my blog everyday ! :D
Work is soso today. Damn quiet at night. Those people flew away ):
Xiushan&Zuni came to find me today during th noon time! Haha! XD
Ohmygawd lah, i really miss sch days ):
But i still hate sch in another way. :x Hehz!
Hohoho! Mr dewei's getting older tmrrrrrr :D hahah! I kept suaning him say he getting older tmr XP & it's real what. :x
Oh anddddddd , i really hate it when those customers ask me th same old question.
You how old ah ? pri what ?
Hell.. For goodness sake im sec4 next year. Do my face really look like some kiddies ? ):
& also my mother's shoe suppliers also th same. Cause they rarely see me, then everytime see me will ask pri what le ? ):
Sadded T.T
Hmm..
I don't think im going to update my bloggy tmr. Shall let it rot for one day! :D
So i think i should give dewei a advancement birthday post ^^



Happy advance Birthday , Mr evil monster (:
May all your wishes come true ^^
Enjoy your birthday ! ~

Alright ~
Off to sleeeeeeep ! :D
byebye!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
not a need to read this.

Yes,i was just hiding th pain deep in my heart.But when you told me you were chatting with her like normal friends, i was jealous. But i was thinking,i no longer have th rights to do this anymore. No, i shouldn't interfere anymore. I can only sit aside & do nothing. Only at that time i realised, i haven't gave up on you. & it brings back th pain & tears.

♥ 10:52 PM

Over .

Hello peepsssss (:
Ha, i just gave my blog some editting. & tata ! :D
Hmm , don't ask what happened or why become like this , cause everything are alr fated. (:
& Im totaly alright ^^ & afterall im still good friends will him (:
& everyone was supportive with my decision. yeah. they don wanna see me get hurt again. Thanks, friends (:
I enjoyed work today alot, But still damn tiring. Brother came to help out toozxc. He's going back to his ns tmr :/
I crapped & laughed alot with my cousins, parents & brother. hehe ^^ it's was so damn funneh :D
Im leading a happy life now.
Shoo away th bad stuffs :D
Ohgawd! I got alotttt of stuffs to buy. & im like running out of money soon ):
I haven buy my contact lenses. I shall wait till sh reopen.
I miss sch days. & i have craving for our canteen's watermelon juice. ):
Ahhhhh, faster open sch lah. ):

I want pepper lunch toozxc. :x
Lots of plans when sch reopen.
Sec4 next year ? Crap. ):

Ah ha! it's dewei's birthday on th 29th. I alr gave him his pressie long time ago. (:

Anw, it's going to be a new year too.
New year, new life. (:
Everything starting a fresh again. (:

Byeeeeee! Im so damn tired.
th crowd is getting bigger ): Why does people chose to buy their sch stuffs on th last day of holiday ah ? ._.

♥ 11:11 PM

Hesitation

Sorry everyoneeeee. Yes, i locked my blog for two days. Cause i was veryvery upset & i wanna post some stuffs & let no one see. I invited nobody. So don ask me why never invite you.
Life was very terrible & horrible for th past few days.
Bad appetite & bad sleep. ):
Everything bad falls together at th same time when i was falling down so deep.
Tears drip down slowly. Happiness change slowly. Everything change slowly.
& yes, i can't blame anyone for it. It was my own mistake. My own.
Wanted to delete this blog, but it kind of contains lots of memories. So i didn't.
I came across this tv drama few days back.
It says that, life is just like a see-saw. When you're going up, another person is falling down. & when you're falling down, another person is going up.
I bet some people out there, are smiling happily & enjoying their life to th fullest. While im crying almost every single day & suffering.
Will you come back ? I don't think so.
Shall i just end everything here ? Or should i not.
Should i say , it's th biggest blow that i ever had in my life for th 15 years.
I laughed, cried & dead.
I never see you coming back anymore. & im just hanging down there... waiting. & waiting. even if i know you will never turn back for me.
What a wonderful silence night. & maybe christmas too.
Will things change ? I really wonder. )':
I tried to flood my thoughts with work stuffs when im working. But work will always end at th end of th day. But th pain im suffering never ends... & it get's even more stronger.
I may never learn to love,smile or laugh anymore..

How do i pick myself up again? I dun know. ):

If i've a christmas wish, i will wish for that message to come. )':

♥ 10:47 PM

117 ♥

Work today was normal.just some idiots customers. :x
Urgh! my shoulder hurts alot ): Both sides somemore. ): Helppppp ! ):<

Gonna wake up early tmr, helping auntie to roll tangyuan ^^ Haha!

Uh yeah, i took a new pair of shoes from my mummie's shop today. I got a hard time deciding which one to choose. :/
Two patterns. Then i was like, wapiang chose which one sia.
Headache.
Then chose th pattern alr, dunno what colour to choose. Okay lah, im fussy. :x
Dunno want silver or black. End up take black. Cause silver very hard to fit clothings. ^^
Anws, its for chinese new year ._. Very early right ?!
But bo bian, scare later no stock.

Uhhhhh ): evil monster went orchard todayy. No fair luh... I working like crazy liddat & he's enjoying. :x Haha.
If he don go out, he will become a rotted piggy. HAHA! :x
-hope he won see this ^^ -

Anws, a large thankyou to Felicia, Xinyi & Annabelle for th belated pressie ^^
it's really very nice. I will take good care of it ! Thanks girls. ^^

Okays, time to bathe. Byeeeee ! (:

♥ 10:23 PM

117 (:



My eye was abit of swollen this morning when i woke up . Most probably was because of last night crying . Wasn't really thinking about it anymore . But when i see mum , i got a very weird feeling . It's was really weird . Sighhs , dun wanna talk bout it anymore .

Work was horrible today . Those bangalas were so troublesomeee :/

Felicia , Annabelle & Xinyi bought me a birthday pressie , but im only going to know what it is on monday . ): Xinyi dun wanna tell me what it is . Hmph ):<

Worried of evil monster . Have been thinking of what really happened to him . ): He said he will text me tmr . So i shall wait .

Shucks .. Why aren't things going th way i want . Im feeling so terrible . & i wanna cry again ):

♥ 10:46 PM

A horrible day.

Once she flip open th newspapers & saw th page on th N levels results, she started giving my negative comments. It's nobody then my mum. Her words hurt me very badly.

Yes, i know my results are like bullshit. But instead of giving my some support you said whatever negative stuffs you can say to me. I was really very upset. & yes, i went to th toilet to cry. My mood change. & my tears couldn't stop dropping.What i really dislike is not what you said but th attitude you actualy reacted towards it. Everytime its like this. Everytime. You never spare a thought for me. You're very unfair towards th way you treat me. You throw me to my auntie to look after since im 4. You never understand me. you never. Im really very curious why you dunwan to look after me yourself. If you really hate me that much, in th first place dun give birth to me.

Evil monster, i know you're troubled with your own problems too. Since you dun wanna tell me, it's okay. But i hope after this few days you'll be alright. (:

I must stay strong. i dun want to let anyone worry about me anymore. Enough of it.

♥ 10:58 PM

117 (:

& yes, i will say this for th first time. (:
You spam, i delete & ban (:
As simple as that.
-some people just don understand-

Work today was damn horrible. veryvery horrible.
Customers were sucha asshole today. & one of th customers actualy scolded me. & after she left, i cried :/ Okay lah, i admit, im very emotional. :/ very easy cry ):
but serious this time, not my fault & i dint speak in a very gl tone.

Ass, it's a very horrible day today. Hate it. If only time can stop ytd. :/

♥ 11:35 PM

Happy birthday to myself! ♥
It was a very memorable birthday (:
Special thanks to those that wished me happy birthday & gave me pressies. Really appreciated it alot. Was really very very touched. (:

Went out with xiushan&shermaine today (:
Damn fun & we were very crazy. XD Hahah!
Bought alot of stuffs today toozxc.






we were trying to act funny ! ^^






Love this th most ^^


th rose & th silver ring is xiushan one ^^
Rest mine ^^

My sandals & xiu's one. cool ~

Tata! no more :D

Anws,
Happy birthday to Alicia
Happy birthday to Ah hua auntie
Happy birthday to Zuni's sis
Happy birthday to Hikam's brother!
& happy one month for audrey & jinyao!

So many people same birthday with me ):

♥ 7:54 PM

117 (:

YES!yesyes!
I waited so long, & just in a few more mins, im going to be th birthday girl XD
Im sooooo happyyyyy! XD

Mummy dote on me manymany this year! She gave me money to buy my cake & i also recieve a bigbigbig pressie from her :D
She's damn good manzxc.
Mummy, i love chuzxc to th max! XD

&& th china girl & my cousin was veryvery gooddd :D
Because of getting my birthday pressie, th silly china girl went down alone to JP to buy for me XD
She's damn goodddd lah. :D
I love th top she gave me XD

Weeee! evil monster was very caring today toozxc ! (:
Hehe^^

Im a happy girl nowzxc! :D

Tmr's th bigbigbig day for me!

Gonna meetup with two crazy girls tmr :D & they are going to make me go highhhhh! ^^

byebye! :D

Reply of taggs :
Zoey : lols. no lah. (: Of course miss you lah! XD
Shermaine: Miss you toozxc! XD Meet up tmr!
Shasyaa: Yesyesyes! i will!
Xinyi: lols, i dun understand what you talking sia._.

♥ 11:19 PM

117 (:

yeah. my blog rotted for 2 days. :x
I was feeling unwell for th past few days.
I was having low blood pressure on sat & asthma attack on sun. ):
Pathetic right? ):
Nevermind :D
Im going to be a birthday girl this wed ! XD
Im so damn excited about it! :D
Presents & wishes flooding in :D
Weeeeeeeee :D Happpyyyy !

Uh, i got nothing to blog bout.
work just sucks. :/
I wanna go out for a breather.
Out of th terrible life im suffering from nowzxc.

Dad, i hate you.
I never understand why, you rather eat someone's baby 1 month cake then eat mummy's birthday cake.
yes, you are very selfish. very.
you never care or bother bout this family.
I dunneed you.

♥ 10:41 PM

117 th (:

yes, it will be a long update today! XD
Woke up at 8.15am, used comp till 9.45am, changed and went out. (:
Took bus to mrt, then trained down to tiong bahru to meet that lazy evil monster XD
He was late for that very first time :X
But its okay lah. (:
Accompanied him to get a birthday present for a girl. GIRL horrrr? ):<
& he chatted happily with th 'girls' staff down there. ):<
Hmphhhhhh ))))):
actualy wanted to get smth for daddy. cause tmr its his birthday.
So we went up & down ._.
& in th end i got nothing :D
Then i took out th pressie i wanna give him. He don want take ):
Then he stated some terms&conditions before he accept his pressie. XS
& we went for lunch at mac (:
I have lunch with a piggy today. see him skinny skinny, when comes to food. he eat alot D:
After lunch, trained down to bugis with him. He went for work, i walked around his work area. Keep disturbing him. Hahah ^^
Around 1.30pm, i lefted.
went to meet shuting. (: I reached first, so i went to Bakerzin to order my birthday cake.
Cute hor? Birthday girl order her cake herself. -.- But it's my mummy's money. heheh ^^
Guess who i saw working down there ? Eric! ._. Was shocked!
Shuting & her sis arrived. Actualy want go watch new moon but then not enough time so walk walk around. Went to 8percent to see got any shoulder bags that caught my eye anot. bo lei ):
Then went zinc! Ahha! found one bag down there :D
At first dunwan buy. then th shuting, keep say buy la buy la. then i really buy ._.
It was raining heavily, so we cabbed down to safra lan. Played l4d2 with them. I died so many times ):
After that, went back to JP to get some stuffs for mother.
Cabb to mum's shop. Gave her th stuffs & bus-ed home.
Dinner was fabulous tonight (: aunty's cooking. ^^

someone promised that he would read my blog everyday. hor evil monster? But he doesn't want to tagg ):<

Uhh, think he's going to end work soon. XD

Byebye! :D

♥ 9:04 PM

Yes, yes , yes !
Im a happy girl naoooooooozxc (:

Past few days was emo-ing. But now im smiling happily! XD
heheh. Thanks to that evil monster luh. Still got who. hahah. (:

He said smth sweet to me just now. (:

Okay lah.
Just a shortie post.
Damn tired.
Nightsssss ;D

♥ 11:10 PM

117 ♥

Work todayy was so tiring. ):
Damn many stocks came. Quite normal for end of th year luh. It's only th beginning.
Monday, 30 boxes of stocks coming. Big boxes okay. ):
Gonna work die me manzxc.

What happen to my apettite ? ):
When im hungry, i want to eat. But then when th food is infront of me, i don feel like eating. ):
My gastric problems are reacting again. & it's getting worse. I've been relying on medication too much. ):
Flu just recovered now gastric. wthzxc.

Movie with shuting & shermaine next week. XD
Excited manzxc. heheh ^^

Evil monster is so tired. ): poor thing. Heart pain for him.

alright, busy day tmr & sunday. Update when im free (:

♥ 11:05 PM

117 ♥

Hello Humanieeeeeessss :D


Yes, a tiring & busy day for work. ):
&& dinner was so damn gross.
Mummy cooked porridge for us. It was century egg porrigde. guess what, i got a fear in century egg, ever since what happen last year. I never eat century egg nor do i even look at them.
When i see it, th gross feeling will come to me, and i feel like puking.
So i didnt eat much for dinner, & i went home hungry. :/

Evil monster is complaining to me bout work. HAHAH! & it's really damn funneh. XD
He told me instead of selling clothes,he look like a manaquinn down there for th girls to stare at. machiam like he's a god. HAHAH. & i laugh like mad. Lols. XP

yes yes yes ! my flu is finally recovering. my original voice is getting back ! Cheers for me! ^^
past few days, i sound like a tiny girl with no voice ._. & th customers always go : har ?
wth.

uh. headache again. -.-

off to blow my wet hair.
wee, count down to my birthdayyyyyyy :D
Presents please flood in.

Byebye! :D

Reply of taggs:
Yarlee: Hahah. welcome. (: Okays sure (:
Chloe.C: Welcome babe ^^
Xinyi: Yeah, belle's sexy body :x HAHHA! Thanks XD
Zihui: Yes! its wow wow wow ! woooo XD
Jianshu: HAHAH! Mai so bhb lah. ass. ._.
Felicia: yeah. Its that silly girl. XP
Xinyi: updated alr lah :D
Peiyu: i will. you toozxc eh! Love ya sweetie!

♥ 10:58 PM

117 th ♥

uh hur, went to work today. (:
Last night i sort of gave evil monster my attitude. & he sort of punish me today with his busy's stuffs.
I text him in th morning before he went to work , then he never reply me. Then i spam him sorry msgs. ):
I thought he was angry. Then when i end work he still haven't reply me. Which makes me go crazy & worried.
& i cried when i was bathing ):
Then i tried to call him. Never pick up, so i kup luh. then after i kup he replied. He told me he was not angry. Then i find myself so silly :x
yeah lah, laugh if you want._.

but this also shows i care for him what :D Hehe ^^
& i alr told him what i've bought for him. cause i don think i would be able to meet him up, & i was afraid he would get himself a new one. so i told him (:
Cause his's was kind of tattered alr. My eyes are sharp ^^

Alright. off to sleep nowwwwww :D
Nighties humanies ^^

♥ 11:35 PM

117 ♥

Hello humanies! :D
Yes, im in a super super goodie mood :D
Woke up at 8.45am.
Text-ed evil monster straight away. But his phone was off, & i went crazy ~
Around 10 he replied me. :D
Quickly changed & prepared. 10.20 then leave house. :x
Train-ed to Bugis. Uhh, i was late again. Im always late when i meet him. ):
Stupid me. ):
Walked around bugis junction. settled down at yoshi..... (forgot le) to have our lunch. But we sat down there & talk all th way to 12 then we went to queue for our food. He was damn hungry. -laughs-
I recieve a bigbig present from him. :D it was my birthday present. & its super duper cute. :D I love it to th max manzxc!
Ate finish, walk around for awhile & he went to work while i train-ed to JP to find shuting :D
She bought th tickets for 2012. (:
& i saw abigail down there working (:
We walked up & down before th movie starts. she bought smth fr minlun while i bought smth for evil monster :D
& i went to hangten to buy polo tees for work. (:
Then we went to th cinema :D
I spent quite alot today x.x Officially broke again ! ):
I want my money!
Th movie was damn thrilling. & we were sitting at th corner. So when we went to th toilet, th people sitting beside us will stare at us :x I even step on someone's foot :x
& when we reached th thrilling part, th silly shuting will grab my cardigan. :D Hahah!





Isn't it cuteee :D ? It looks small down here. But th real thing is big ^^
Thankyou alot manzxc, evil monster. :D

Im damn satisfied & happy today (:
A date with him & a movie with my best friend.
& yes, i could say happiness is in th air. (:

Thankyou.

Happy 23rd anniversary to Shuting & her boyf (:
Love you babe ^^

Byebye!

Anw, Odit cheer up yeah (: You can do better next time (: Don think of it anymore le (:

♥ 6:51 PM