Never ending .

Friday, May 29, 2009

Its another awful day today .
Woke up and my ulcer under my tougue hurts even more . & im sick .
Dint wish to talk much .
In sch , kinnda moody . As you guys can expect its still th same thing .
Yeah , its hard to get over him . But im trying already .
& me and him are still friends . (:
Im starting to face th truth now .
I have a talk with Adeline , its been so long we have sucha long talk .
We shared out our probelms . Both of us feel like crying too .
Then she tell me : Don't cry .
Omg , my results really sucks ! My overall failed ! But it say i passed ? idk . But its th first time i fail my overall marks ! i got 287/700 .
L1B2 : 12
I failed 3 subjects and passed 3 subjects .
I got a bad scolding from my whole family , isnt that like ... ?
I really don understand , why can't they just give me some moral support instead of scolding and scolding .
Do they even understand how i feel ? Hais . ):
Like i once said , bad problems always come together .
I don't know how to face th reality now .
I somehow really feel like giving up .
Oh yeah , i remember telling bestie today about death .
then i spouted rubbish saying : Die is th best , dun have to worry so much about anything anymore!

th 4th day without you ~

♥ 5:51 PM

Thursday, May 28, 2009

I cried real badly last night till my eyes went reddish and swollen .
In th morning , my eyes were super small . ):
Th pain gets even worser day by day .
especially in sch and at home , when there is friends or family around me , i will just have to pretend that im happy .
Its th 2nd day without him .
& i saw someone who looks so alike with him , i thought i was him , but it was not .
As i expected , its not only about th family matters but something else .
My heart just bleeds more and more .
Bestie asked me this question : You get over him already ?
I answered her : Get over such things , are hard to say .
But right in my heart , im still thinking about him .
For th rest of th day at home , all i do was looking at th msgs he last send me last night , and i started crying again .
Tell me what to do . . .
Im missing him alot and alot .
I have never felt this way before .

Th 3rd day without you ...

♥ 4:53 PM

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

I was totaly wrong . Totaly wrong about him .
I thought he really loved me , but no or i can say i really dont know .
Th way he talked to me , seems like he don't care anymore .
Why must every single guy be so selfish .
Have they ever considered th feelings of th opposite party ?
I really don't understand why .
How come you still seems to be so happy after everything between you & me have ended .
I really cannot believe it when people tells me when you are toying me .
I really dont believe it .
You never ever spared me a thought .
You just think that i will recover fast . But i can only say no .
You didn't know that you have become a part of me .
You didn't know anything at all .
& now im just like a stranger in your eyes ...
Why did you become so cruel ?
I really don't understand . Why ?

♥ 8:56 PM

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Although its over between me & him .
I know th love we have for each other was still there .
& i will never give up loving you .
My love for you will never change <3>
We both accepted th decision . Its no one to blame .
Everything are all fated .

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

th song lyrics from one of th song from by2 .
But what it said is true for me and him (:

I love you (:
I feel like crying again ):

♥ 8:57 PM

We have broke up .
Thats all i could say .
Because of some family matters .
Tears flowed down slowly again

♥ 8:21 PM

Monday, May 25, 2009

Hellos Hellos ! ;D
Im super boredddddddd~
So i came to update this quiet blog . ;X
Argh , i want to set as public BLOG ! T.T
I know its troublesome for you guys to have to logg in to view my blog . Please bear with me a lil while more . ;X

Hmm , lets talk about today :
Th sales ! Woke up early morning at 5am ? Prepared , Changed & peeked out of my window to check whether my bee have arrived . Wanna know why ? o.o Hahas !
Th reason is : He knew that i will carrying lots of heavy stuffs & its dangerous for me one girl to walk to shuting house in early morning which is so dark .
He's sweet right ? Hahas . Im really lucky to be loved by my boy .
I can say , he's th best boyf ! ;D
But i can see he's troubled by th probelm between him & his fwens , by his expressions and his msgs . ): Heart pain for him . ): How i wish i could help him at least abit .
Hmm , Loong Wee reached Shuting's house only at 7am ? Pro right ? -.-
Bo bian so we cabb-ed down to sch . -.- Not enough time .
Our group quite good !
Cost : $0 ( we took our goods on consignment from our supplier )
Pure Profit : $200.80

Like WOW ?!
Hahas .
Yeah , we have alot of conflicts between each other . esp , me and shuting&shermaine . Hais .
It was th first time i quarrelled so awful with my bestie shermaine . ):
*Self-Reflection*
Mr Jacky even came to talked to me untill i cried . ;X
Jia lat !
I thought im always strong enough to face all these , but im not .
Im still a small weakling that needs lots of help , esp , when probelms fall together . ):
Its hard time coping with probelms all coming against you together . ):
Thats why .
But i felt better now . (:
But all i could say now of my feelings are : both physically and mentally tired , sad & troubled .

At first , i dint want to tell Bee wad happen to me , although im having a hard time . Because i know he is troubled enough . I dun wish to add on to his troubleness .
He have to cope his studies & relationships with me & his friends . ):
Im Sorry Baby ):
I'll try not to make you worry so much anymore . (:
Don't have to worry that much okays ?
I dun know whether you can see this anot lah , but i think we got telepathy remember ? Hahas . Yeah . Im missing him badly now . We cant text-ed and chat on th phone becos his fone no $$ le .
But im gonna wait . Heheh ! <3 style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">

& bee , i dun know why ytd you tagg me derhs , dissappear liao ! T.T

Ahhh , i simply hate th weather now ! Super hot ~ My throat is hurting again & my allergy (rashes) is reacting again .
OOps ! im not suppose to say anything . dint i just mention i will not make my bee worry ?
Later he heart pain ;X Lol .
Hahas .

Its a long post uh ? Lol .
Found out that i have been updating in long posts ! ;D

Btw , i wanna thanks all th people who supported us today ! Much loves ! (:

Byes ! i have not eaten my dinner yet ! But i feel like sleeping more ;X
Baby <3

Telling myself to jiayou ! i must find back th strong me ! (: *

Labels: You have pulled me out

♥ 7:49 PM

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Updating & updating ~

No one tagg ! T.T Never mind since its private blog . At least more peace (:

Woke up early in th morning . Went to meet shuting at her house . (:
dhen around 12pm train-ed all th way to boon keng ( purple line ) to meet our supplier .
Ruth is so kind manzx ! (:
At first she dint want to do it on consignment , but after that she agreed to it ! Yay ;D
Hahas . Dhen collected our goods which is like 3 big bags full ? Omg lah . Its heavy D: But vinly that bag more heavy ;X
Its fun going with shuting's sister & cousin . esp , Vinly. She super funny manzx .
We train-ed back to jurong point , went to arcade to change th gifts .
Super tired manzx . *Yawns*
Dhen saw terry & jerry there ddr-ing . Hahas . Terry was bullied by us . ;X
hmm , ting , her sis and vinly played th basketball derhs . Sorry girls , im not th arcade type derhs . ;X I dint played .
Hmm, actualy Baby wanted to come down from woodlands to send me home . But becos of th time , we dint managed to meet .
Baby got some probelms with his good friends .
Hais . Sorry Baby . I know you will say its not my fault . But still sorry about it . ):
Hope everything will be well between you and your friends soon . Super worried about him .
Bus-ed home with th girls . sort of i was emo-ing in th bus ? Lol .
When we were walking home , i called Baby .
He told he he's at lakeside . He just reached . & i was some where there . Th condo lake shore . ^^
He came to meet me (: Heheh .
He held my hands tightly , i liked it . (:
Its give me a warm feeling . (:
He looks tired . ): Seeing him so troubled and tired , i feel bad about it . ):
Baby , i hope things will change between you & your friends . Don think too mucch about it okay . Im here for you . Anything just tell me (: & enjoy your sleep now . Love you <3>

He send me to th block next to mine so my uncle wont see us . (:
Now i got a fear le , when he send me home , i will look around me to check .
Im really scared le . ):

AHHH ! Baby is going to msia tmr . how how how ?! i will miss him badly . ):
some more he is so tired alr . But he got no choice . ):
I miss my boy alot alot manzx <33>
Bee Bee <3>

Oh shyts ! i have not done th list for our things -.-
Oh My lah , Tmr will be a damn busy day for me . ):

Ohkay . Byes ! i have not bath -.-
Loves Bee <3>

Sorry readers ! Taggs will be replied another day ! Real busy ! >.<

♥ 7:54 PM

Friday, May 22, 2009

Im so troubled . ):
Why does th god wanna fool me this way ?
When everything was going well between me & him .
I wanna cry .

Bee send me home today and my uncle saw both of us together .
i dint expect him to come home so early .
He went into th house first .
I talked to Bee awhile before going back .
When i went back home , i went to my room straight away .
Then my uncle walked out of his room , asked me is that guy my boyf ? i admitted .
Looking at his face , i got scared .
Im afraid he will tell my aunty about it .
I stayed in my room for 1 hour trying to avoid my uncle .
Bee tell me not to hide in th room .
8pm then i bath & eat .
Now chatting with bee online . Trying to seek help from girls . Asking them for advice .
This time , If my uncle going to say , im going to persuade my aunty and mother .
If it wont works , im going to rebell .
I don care what it takes , i just wanna be with him .
No one can seperate th both of us .
NO ONE . !

Mummy Daddy , im sorry . I can't afford to lose him .

♥ 9:08 PM

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Hellos hellos ! ;D

New blog again uh ? Heheh . Please bear with me lah >.<
& this blog will be private . Erm , you guys might find it weird but i got my own personal reasons .
Only Bee know it <3 style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Heheh !

Only my bee can read this hor ! If not later he jealous liao . ;X
i just kidding ! Heheh ! Bu yao sheng qi hor !

Talking about bee , he's super sweet cans ?
Yeah , as you guys expected . He's my new boyf .
Hmm , erh .. i knew there will be gossiping again . But im not gonna care . (:
Bcos i simply love him alot . (:
Hmm , he is far more better then th bastard .
At least , he respect me , love me , trust me , treated me as his girlf & many many more lahs .

Bee ,
i know you wont be able to see this now .
Tmr you will see it okay (: Heheh . Hahas . i know you want to know wad im going to say right ?
Hahas . Your msgs super funny lah ! & sweet ! <3 style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Esp , th msg : i will pull you away from your past nightmares .
Omg , you know how touched i feel mah ? Super duper touched lah ! >.<
I gonna love love love you many many manzx ! This is what i have always wanted .
& this tyme im sure of my right choice . <3 style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Yes im very very SURE .
You been holding on to me , so i wont fall and never stand up again .
Telling me not to give up , and always staying by my side . (:
& im th honey you th bee ? Hahas . Super sweet lah . ><
Bee Bee ! <3 style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I feel super blessed and loved by you manzx .
Your one of a kind .
The feeling this time is much more different . <3 style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I can feel th security from you . An quan gan . (:
Super Super madly in love with you lah !
Hahas , you so impatient hor ? Now want to see this liao .
Hahas . i purposely type slow slow . Hahas . Just kidding . ;D
*evil laughs *
Bee , i promise & promise ..
I will do my best to be a good girlf , Love you with all my heart & cherish you deeply . (:
This post is dedicated for you derhs . (:
I Love You , Bee . <3>o<
& bee i tell you something .
Just now hor , i see th horoscope thing about love derhs .
I go and match You & me de horoscope . and you know wad i saw anot ?
You sure will like it de lah . ;X
Ohkay i tell you
it says : A match made in heaven ! These partners have similiar energies and interest , and are highly compatible .
Dun say i superstitious hor ! But everything it said is true . we both is so similiar.
heheh !
Bee Bee <3

♥ 8:21 PM