I cried real badly last night till my eyes went reddish and swollen . In th morning , my eyes were super small . ): Th pain gets even worser day by day . especially in sch and at home , when there is friends or family around me , i will just have to pretend that im happy . Its th 2nd day without him . & i saw someone who looks so alike with him , i thought i was him , but it was not . As i expected , its not only about th family matters but something else . My heart just bleeds more and more . Bestie asked me this question : You get over him already ? I answered her : Get over such things , are hard to say . But right in my heart , im still thinking about him . For th rest of th day at home , all i do was looking at th msgs he last send me last night , and i started crying again . Tell me what to do . . . Im missing him alot and alot . I have never felt this way before .